The Human Heart

I always think it’s strange when people talk about their heart, as in emotionally. I was thinking this afternoon about my own heart. Not in the physical sense, as in the beating organ, but as in all of the things that I have been through in the past few years, and the resilience of the heart.

Relationships are hard. That’s no secret. But I am amazed by my husband, who has stood by me and helped me to heal through some things that I never thought I would be able to. When we started dating, I was at the tail end of a devastating and nasty divorce. I had let go of my ex, but couldn’t seem to let go of the hurt, and honestly saw no hope for truly loving again. I didn’t think I could open myself up to being hurt like that again. He took a risk with me, in that I wasn’t so sure that I could ever love anyone again, and he bet on me healing. He was right, very much to my surprise.

Last night, we didn’t do much of anything special. We had dinner out for the first time in a while, and then did a bit of running around, shopping. Then we came home and just absolutely crashed. Still, it was the first time in a while that we had the chance to really do anything together, so even though it was nothing particularly special, it was special just for that reason. I got the most wonderful text message from him this afternoon:

Hey! I love you! You make me very happy and last night was fun. It’s awesome being married to my best friend.

I couldn’t agree more. It reminded me just how great it is to truly be loved for who I am and to be able to share my life with my best friend. I couldn’t ask for more!

Today was not a good day at work. Basically, our state testing is in 3 weeks (well, 3 weeks of school, but we also have spring break in there, so a little bit more, really) and my kids are nowhere near where they need to be. I have taught all of the material, and at one point they had it, but they seem to have forgotten it. I guess out of sight, out of mind? So now I have to review all of that and bring it back up to the surface.

I also went clothes and makeup shopping tonight. I bought some bronzer and mascara. I have no clue where my old mascara went. I decided to try this one, though, as a replacement. I don’t wear mascara much, but decided what the hey, while I’m at it…

I also bought 4 new shirts, which are all much more suited to the springy weather! Yay!! I have only found pictures of 2 of them online, and I think they look better in person.

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I also saw this dress while looking for pictures. It’s only available online, and I hate to buy clothes that I haven’t at least seen. Hmm…. I may have to think about it. I really like this dress, and for $22… well…

I guess I’ll have to think it over.